Well I hope you know this post is for you, please read it carefully, try to understand every single word and sentence, though I might not be that perfect in writing like you do, I hope its good enough for a perfectionist like you to understand, I’ve known you for 2 years plus, we never had any problems back then, but as day goes by I realized we’re drifting far apart, though not obviously.. Im surprised by how quick you can turn out to be, urmm ‘evil’ I may say, or maybe that doesn’t affect you in anyway as you yourself know you can be very very MEAN sometimes. Im tired of keeping up with all your so-called perfectionist attitude, I’ve never bitch about you, not even a single thing to anyone, and this is how you repay me huh? NICE, NICE! ..
When people have weaknesses, they'll hide it. Like a dark deep secret, it should be tucked in deep somewhere, hidden, so that no one can ever find it. Funny, how it's a different case for you. How cunning of you to use your weakness to shield yourself. I have to give it to you though, you're smart in that way. Cheers to you, dear.
---When people have weakness, they don’t have to hide it from their bestfriends, I had never tried to be cunning to use my weakness to SHIELD myself! If you think that way, well I guess im just me, and I don’t have to be like you, hiding all your weakness and all you can do is just by blogging so that no one knows! For your information, from now onwards, you will know nothing about me anymore, none of my weakness neither in what Im perfect in!
It's amazing how sensitive you can be when the story is about you but when the story involves other people, I don't know where your sensitivity went. All those small little things that you happen to do or didn't do; I noticed girl. Every single one of it. And truthfully, it gets pretty annoying day by day.
---Before you even say this to me, look yourself into the mirror, when the story is about you, you get really sensitive, even a phrase like ‘rambut kau colour kan, kau tak boleh jadi imam’ and ‘mana tudung, tak pakai pulak dah’ sensitive much huh, when all people’s intention was just to say, say without any bad feelings, and when you go around blogging about your own bestfriend, you never think whether or not you will hurt that person, now where did your sensitivity went? perhaps I might have to be like you after this, like what malay saying sounds like ‘tebalkan muka, pedulikan je perasaan orang lain, yang penting diri sendiri puas hati’
Turn the table around, twist the story, play with words, I'll give it all to you. In other words, I am amazed how manipulative you can be. You got me fooled once, but lucky for me I quickly realised that it is all game for you so you can't fool me twice. And sucks for me, you're the one who's winning. Cheers to you again, dear.
---Honestly, I don’t get what you mean in this point, I’ve never had any intention to FOOL you, as a normal human being, I don’t play stupid games like what you said and what more FOOLING my own bestfriend, and tell you what! You have to stop thinking as if only other people wins and you’re always the loser, isn’t that a way for people to have pity on you thinking as if ‘ohhh kesian you asyik jadi loser je, let that person be la, she might win now but not forever’
Now, let's talk about your innocence. Oh, you play the part real swell girl. Act all pitiful, and weak, and basically innocent in order to gain people's pity. Well I must say once again that I was fooled by your tears; once. But again, I've realised your game. So you won't be able to fool me twice. You can keep on crying after this and make me look like the bad girl who took the little girl's candy away, but shall I say my dear, the truth shall prevail.
---You know something, I fucking hate your statement! Its like, "ouchhhh :( " “Act all pitiful, and weak, and basically innocent in order to gain people’s pity, if you can have the heart to say this, Im sorry but you’re the worst friend I’ve ever known, in conclusion, “YOU DON’T KNOW ME THAT WELL, SO DON’T ACT LIKE YOU DO” I wont be crying over this matter cause it will only make me look like a loser to you and there you'll go, thinking as if Im acting, AGAIN -.-..
Oh, and before I forget let me just tell you that you should stop being so hypocrite in front of me. I think I've known you quite well to know when you're lying and when you're being sincere. Quit the act my dear, I am sick of watching all you re-runs. Seriously, I do. You're not the greatest actress after all. No applause for you here.
---Who’s the one being a hypocrite here? Let me repeat, if you really do know me well, you will know when Im lying and when Im being sincere, who are you to tell me to quit an act I’ve never started when you’re one of the hypocrite like you just mentioned, act all innocent in front of me, act nice telling me ‘don’t let people bring you down’ when fact is you’re the one who is ripping me apart, let me ask you, what kind of friend will bitch his/her close friend in his/her blogsite and let the whole world know, for your information, I dare to swear to God, never even once I talked bad about you in anyway to anyone, its sad as this is what I get in return. What a HYPOCRITE you are! I dont need an applause from you anyway~
Maybe I am not so perfect to be telling you all these. Maybe I wasn't being such a good friend. Like you said, if I appreciate this friendship I should have tell you sooner. Maybe you're right but truthfully, I don't know how to tell you all these things 'cause I somehow knew that you wouldn't be listening. It is almost I can predict your reaction if I would've told you all these to your face. Or maybe I just don't know if I appreciate this friendship enough to even tell you in the first place.
---Well let’s just make it easier, ‘kalau betul kau kawan baik aku, kau takkan rasa yang aku takkan dengar kalau kau cakap apa2’ do you even understand bahasa melayu? Im not sure if you do cause you’re ‘budak BEN’ remember? It means, if you’re really my friend, you would have do the right thing which is by telling me everything that ure unsatisfied about, you don’t know how you hurt me when I offered to have lunch at your place and your answer was ‘I don’t feel like doing it anymore’ you should imagine me saying that to you, yet I acted fine and if you could go and re-read the text I sent, you will see how I apologize not because Im at fault but its simply because I truly appreciate our friendship, but what did you do? NOTHING!
You'd probably talk about your problems and weaknesses first in order to tell me that I am adding salt to your current wound, then you'd probably be all sensitive and will start crying, then you'll apologise for your wrongs but later on, you'll turn the table around and somehow manipulate things to make me feel guilty, and again you would act all innocent and sad; making me look like the bad guy and lastly, you'll be a hypocrite by saying things such as "Let's forget about this" and "I forgive you" and bla bla bla.
---What’s your main point actually? The phrase ‘let’s forget about this’ comes sincerely from my heart, but by what you have written in this blogpost, Im sure your ‘I forgive you’ does not come sincerely from your heart, awesome!
Just a prediction but it has happened more than once, so I am not surprise if it'll happen again. This is kinda harsh isn't it? I know, I can be a little mean sometimes. But hey, look on the bright side. Maybe you can use this as a story on how a bad girl treats you like shit after all the "good intentions" you had for her. Whatever and however it is, put it to a good use will ya? :)
---Yeah, its too harsh and I never expect you to turned out to be so evil though, I am looking on the bright side, but you know what, you need to have some feelings too, I know that it’s your blog and you have the right to write whatever you want about whoever you want, I will sure put this to a good use, thanks a lot!
So babe, I’ve reached the conclusion..call me an actress, anggap la I ni orang yang suka menagih simpati, orang yang suka mintak belas kasihan, but to be honest, whatever crap that I’ve told you before, all the tears I cried, all the sorrow I felt, it has never been a part of my act, I don’t know what else to day but all I can say is ‘I tak tau macam mana lagi nak express my feelings’ when I first saw this blogpost, I was like ‘maybe its my fault, AGAIN’ but guess what, I decided not to admit that Im guilty when fact is im not, if I tak pernah nak judge you in whatever fucking thing you do, NEVER once in my life! and you’re here bitching about me with SATISFACTION then I guess the problem is in you, NOT ME.. Worst when I texted you about this, and the only thing you asked is ‘are you mad’ hahaha! You’ve done great babe, excellent job! Its freaking hard to hear the word SORRY from you, instead all you love to say is ‘I might be mean sometimes, sounds harsh huh’, I should’ve realized that a long time ago, in conclusion all I can say is, ‘you memang tak ada perasaan and you act as if you’re the only one who is perfect’ kalau tak, takde la you envy your friend who get lots of attention but not you~ Know what, Im tired of holding on to this friendship, "WHAT'S THE POINT TRYING WHEN I KEEP FAILING" I gave up, let me tell you something, ‘your words might bring me down but they aint gonna destroy me’ this all will only make me stronger, and yes! Don’t bother replying this blogpost or texting me to condemn or criticize on me anymore, I guess Im just too weak and I will only end up crying like an idiot, whatever it is, thanks for whatever you’ve done for me, I admit you’ve been such a nice friend for being there everytime I need you, but I also admit I hate you for posting this, I really do hate you now, Im disappointed, Im torn apart thinking back on how you would maybe feel annoyed everytime you see there’s an incoming text from me, a reminder to you, ‘apa yang I buat selama ni semua had never been some kind of act or drama untuk menagih simpati’ apa yang I dapat? DUIT? GOOD RESULTS IN EXAMS? GET PRETTIER? Tak kan? So buat apa I nak berlakon semua? All I ever wanted was to talk to someone about my problems, it is either you or my another friend which you know who she is.. Sometimes, without you realizing, you’re a little too judgemental sometimes, you never bother to ask yet you prefer to predict. I admit, all this kinda like make me think ‘don’t cry,she’s not worth crying for’ Babe, this is just sad but I have to say, OUR FRIENDSHIP ENDS RIGHT NOW, RIGHT HERE~ WEIRD HUH? HOW I ACTUALLY TRIED MY BEST TO HOLD ON ALL THIS WHILE AND HOW I CAN EASILY TELL YOU THAT IT HAS ALL ENDED~ “I MIGHT BE MEAN SOMETIMES”
